making mama’s night February 3, 2010
Last night I made mommy’s night! I slept from 9:30 to 7:30 without asking for a bottle… I had never done that before!
Official induction January 31, 2010
Well, we saw my doctor on Friday and set the date for my induction. I am 2 and 70%, so on Thursday we are going to strip the membranes and if that doesn’t work than I go in Friday morning for inducing. Josiah is excited because this is the first condition for us going to see Jim’s family. Every night at dinner Josiah prays that “Baby Lise be born and Eva owie.” Translated it means “Eva’s surgery gets done and Annalise is born so I can go to grandma’s.” Eva, of course, does not understand the excitement, but she can tell something exciting is happening… plus, she will like spending the night at grandma’s house here in town. Since Josiah and Eva are not coming to the hospital they get to spend the night at grandma’s. The plan is that Lise and I will be in the hospital the shortest time possible.
a thought that kept me up January 29, 2010
Sometimes I have the “if I could do it again” thought process pop in my head and they usually catch me off guard. Well, over the last few months that question has popped into my head many times, but about things that I had no control over. The answers though were something that I thought I should think about and I thought I would share them.
The question: If I could go back 2 years and had to do it over again, would I try and change the future as it relates to Eva? (I know, loaded question!)
This question I have asked myself many times over and the answer was always a no brainer, but I couldn’t help but wonder my motives behind that answer.
I wouldn’t change all the emotional downs, because that made her first smile all the more beautiful.
I wouldn’t change all the physical hard times, because that made her sitting, crawling and walking milestones all the more priceless.
I wouldn’t change the many hours I have cried, because that makes her laugh sound all the more sweet!
I wouldn’t change the bad days of cafeteria food, because that made her first bite a cake all the more exciting.
I wouldn’t change the many hours of sitting in a room waiting for her to come off a breathing machine, because that makes the feeling of her breathing as we cuddle all the more welcomed.
I wouldn’t change the overwhelming feeling of isolation, because that means she is still alive.
I wouldn’t change the two weeks of stress that I spent just feeding her and cleaning up throw up, because that made watching her appetite increase over the last year that more thrilling.
I wouldn’t change the days of watching her as she was medically paralyzed, because that makes her hugs all the more warm.
I wouldn’t change the feeling on the day she was born of not knowing if I would ever see her again, because that makes every heartbeat all the more cherished.
No, I would not change life with Eva, because for the past 14 months I have had the blessing of being greeted in the morning by a little girl with big blue eyes and a even bigger smile as I get her out of bed, or hearing her say mama and dada, or seeing her light up when her brother walks in the room. As 1 Peter talks about the trials God sends I can’t help but be so grateful for this one! He has used it to grow Jim and I in so many ways and has taught us that our kids are His gifts to us to enjoy while we are all here and to just marvel at His miracle of life, healthy or not.
Ever heard of amelia bedelia? January 29, 2010
Sorry, this was suppose to be posted a month ago!
We were at a friends out making Christmas cookies and Josiah informed me he had to go to the bathroom. Upon hearing this I thought of the need to remind him of a few things since this was a all girls party that he had to tag along for. I told him “Ok, make sure you shut the door and turn on the light.” It only took a few seconds for me to realize that the order in which I spoke the tasks would be a problem . But my rephrasing to him was too late as he was already at the bathroom door… sure enough, Josiah shut the bathroom door first. And then the whimper could be heard from inside the bathroom as he was in the dark. Well, I have to give him points for trying to obey in the right order!
B-I-B-L-E song January 26, 2010
Josiah really likes to sing. One of his favorite songs is the Bible song. It goes:
The B-I-B-L-E, yes thats the book for me.
I stand alone on the word of God.
The B-I-B-L-E
Bible!
However, Josiah does not quite know the words to the song. He tries really hard to get it, but is always quite a bit off. Here is a typical Josiah version:
B-I-B-I-E, yes thats book for me,
I stand up by myself,
the B-I-B-I-E
Bible!
I thought that it was very interesting to note the thought process that went into his mind to arrive at the words that he tried. As a sinner, his thought process is not centered on standing in Christ, in the word. His thought process is instead on himself. Therefore, the words that makes sense to him, are involving standing on his own. This is a great picture of what it is to stand before God as a sinner–one who thinks he stands on his own in so many ways…versus the Biblical picture of standing only in Christ’s righteousness. Kids illustrate the truth in such amazing ways.
Doctor for mommy January 21, 2010
Well, we just got back from seeing my OB/GYN. Everything seems promising for my getting induced on the 5th. The doctor said he will only induce me if it looks like the pitocin will be successful in causing labor. I am 50% and 1 and full term tomorrow (Friday).
